How To Trust In Fear

Watch every single step as none are insignificant in their duty to teach you. It is in these narrow stretches that you are being guided into placement for your highest good.

Life will hand you an unending series of changes over which you will have no control.

It is in these narrow stretches that you are being guided into placement for your highest good.

It is also when you will feel frustrated, defeated, angry, jealous, resentful and scared.

You may even lose faith that there exists any guidance at all because you can not see with your own eyes which way to go.

This is not punishment. It is a sacred disempowerment that is asking you to lay down your weapons and trust that there is a far larger process at work.

I’m not going to lie to you, I still struggle with this.

By nurture, I am a fighter, albeit a quiet one. I’ve been known to hammer myself into a flatness that cannot find its way back to form.

I have written to you before about Paul McCartney’s “Let It Be” and how the song came to him one night. He’d been struggling with his band, and his late mother, named Mary, appeared in a dream and told him, “it will be alright, let it be.”

I will sing this song to myself when I can not see a way through. Over and over.

Besides the fact that music is a universal language, humming, chanting and singing all activate the vagus nerve via its connection to the larynx. This stimulation tells your parasympathetic nervous system that’s it’s ok to relax you.

Listening to music attached to warm memories of your past also brings about safe emotions and an internal feeling of belonging.

In my case, it could be that I was raised in Catholic school and the term Mother Mary evokes decades worth of comforting imagery.

It may be a different song for you. Perhaps a hike through nature, yoga or meditation.

Whatever it is, by all means, feed your soul. Stay open. Soften your heart.

Your inclination will be to rush to a ‘fix’…even forcing the closure of the chapter.

And yes, you may feel temporary relief, but this process requires slow and proper ceremony.

Be diligent in your patience. Watch every single step as none are insignificant in their duty to teach you.

If this “spiritual reorganization” does not complete fully, you will receive the lesson again. And again. Ring any bells?

What I am suggesting of you is not easy, and your mind will shake you with all the possible consequences of your surrender.

Here’s the thing, whether you let go or plow through, there will be consequences. They are the surest companion of our free will, but often they are not what scares us the most. Instead, it’s the fear of what others will think, say and do.

I’m going to let you in on a secret—in case you don’t already know. No matter your journey, no matter your choice, your answer, your opinion…there are millions of people waiting—right now—to chastise you publicly for it.

That’s on them. You be you.

Erin